Blue Heaven Blue Flame

Okey  so we all have heard of Multiple Personality Disorder..Yea..that means a few Different characters exists..in one body..it’s when that person..keeps everything inside..and dun let his problems go..or ..his/her desires are not fulfilled..so another charater comes into play..it kind of generates itself..to ..fulfill what the "real" character wants…but the  "real" charater doesn’t have a clue that it’s happenin to him..he thunks he juz went to sleep or…juz went unconcious…People having  this kind of problem..pose  themselves as an empty space in the spiritual realm..so..they can be posessed and thinks like dat..yea…even if u like to switch…or pretend to be something  that ur not…ur actuyally putting ur spirit on the line…yea…actors..I know…u must be very conscious..when ur pretendin to be somethin that ur not…always be alert..and conscious..most people do it sub-consciously…so..that’s y soon that certaon charater that they are tryin to be will soon influencethen take over you completely with out you knowing at all…so be care ful guys….

That was only the intro…now I wanna talk about living split  lives…I mean forming an image to coveer up what u really are deep down  inside..??Sounds familiar?? Anyways..some of us put on "shells"..because of the previous hurts that we’ve gone through..somethin that hurts soo bad..till u juz wanna let go of that bad memory..u ended up..creatin a whole new person fur urself…to cover what u are in the past..Confused?? Let me give u a lil’ situation..here..say..u were a soft person so many months ago..and then  someone "special" came along..u get what I mean right?? haha..anyways…yea…so u like this person soooo much at that time…most probably that person was  the one u fell so bad in love with (man I hate usin’ that 4 letter word, it sounds so sissy fying..)…but unfortunately u got rejected..or…say…worse still u hate to move to another place sooo far away…thousands of miles…and u  go through many many…months of pain..of leaving someone u really l**e….the pain was so bad that u din even want to look fur another person…or..even if u try…that spark of l**e juz won’t come out…even when UR tryin to make that kind of "chemical" reaction  come up..by itself…it’s like a part of u is tellin "No u still like her..she’s got the best of u…"but u dun want that feelin come up….so here is where the body, mind and  soul…starts it’s mechanism..it’s like a switch is turned on…so..yea…the "new"…character comes around…because u dun wanna go through that depression..but deep down somewhere…u hav that dirty lil’ secret…ur locked that someone "special"..soemwhere in ur mind…not lookin forward to open it..again…but ..sometimes..the thought..screams to get out..but by makin a new character..u will be able to handle it better…yea…but still somehow..the pain will still be there for sometime…But then later..it’ll be nothing more than a funny memory..I mean…Can u imagine….from that soft person u were…Usuddely changed COMPLETELY…from a person that is normally dominated…u …become the person who controls everything..and say…from..a clean cut dude…u become like this rough exterior biker boy…and from being concern bout someone…u dun want people to know that u do anything good…in fact u want them to know that u often  do something..bad…all this is juz to protect ur soft side…it’s like ur mak8ing a guardian fur urself…only ur closest people..knows what u really are..to others..ur just someone..really lean, mean..and cares bout no one else..but urself…yea..so ur new character is like a big brother to ur "real self"…..IF people start accepting all of us as we are..we dun have to come out with cuch crazy charaters..and put our lives on the line..yes..it’s that dangerous…so often this people..sometimes get misjudged..because of their new character..I mean…u look at this guy he is so neat…but his hand-writing is horrible..but juz because of his hand-writing and ur silly comments…he changed…into a rough dude…but if u go to his home…his really fussy bout cleanliness and all that…and yea…so…I wanna add somemore…this dude..from who dun mix with all this bad people…he starts SMOKING!!!! i mean..can u imagine…okey..picture this in ur mind…picture someone…u know…whose really soft…and starts SMOKING!!!!!! hard to believe right..from a coward to a DAREDEVIL!!…so stop misjudging people…give them a chance and…get to know them…deep down this kind of people…is someone..really soft..and really nice….it’s juz we dun care about this people…if u see a girl..that is dressed up..like a boy…get to know her….she could be the most lady-like person u’ve ever known..often the new charaters are the total opposite/contrast..of what they really are…so please..please…u should really..really get to know someone…before..judging them…
man that was long haha…aight..anyway..i got somethin here fur ya’ll…   

I should have put it up..bout…2 weeks ago..yea..me and..my gang…bald…except fur that YJ…his such a coward..hmmph..dissappointed…hmmph…the pic ain’t really that big huh..I’ll put it up..the..album or somethin lar….Holla!!!!

Chris J

Okey..yea…I’m back…sorry cuz I din let ya’ll know bout my friend…YJ…he got burned allright…HAHAHAHA….he found out bout it..on the day…I wrote bout wat was happenin..(which was the date of my previous entry)..anyway…he was playin one of his friends hp…and that “fren”..was notified bout that prank..and he was also told NOT to disclose DtG’s handphone…and guess wat?!?!?!..YJ saw all those messages…and of course..he got juz a lil’ dissappointed…I’m so proud of him that he din make a big “hu-ha”..bout that matter..anyways..now..he hav his imaginiry girl friend..and we ALL laugh bout it together…HAHAHAH..okey..somemore..wat else to talk about…hmm…oh yea!!! Okey…today..we had to do an experiment in the ‘kimia lab’…it was something bout..testing to see if it’s asid..you know..the one..that..will turn purple when u put in da penunjuk universal??does it ring a bell?? okey nvm…anyway…c2 was pouring some water into the buret..so his hand was above head-level..and i was blowin some sort of funny apparutus…at c2..right on his face haha..(it had water in it)..HAHAHAH…i was blowing all the water on his face for about 5 seconds..he act “sabar” at first..the suddenly he threw the whole jug of water on ME!!!!damn man..I was wet and cold…especially today when it was raining..then suddenly my shirt started turnin’ blue..(that I dunno why lar)…earlier oso somethin similiar like dat happened…but I was oni blowing thin streams of water on him…but he POURED everything on ME!!!..Hauyoo…terrible man…hahahHAHAHAHA…but it was funny all right…anyways..I dunno ithis was worth ur time readin…Sorry if it isn’t…I’ll be back soon…Yea yea…u know..wat I’m bout to say “keep readin’”..promise I’ll be back with something spicier next time…Holla!!!!

Chris J

Okey….bout the 2 previous posts…real sorry bout that…cuz..as I said …some error occured…any way…U know YJ? Yea..one of my closes hommies..part of da gang…OK…so this guy is very…GULLIBLE..really…see here..DtG..got this..new hp..number right..he juz switched cuz..this guy was gettin celcom’s PLATINUM PLAN..(damn that’s one of da best plans)..he didn’t have to pay any monthly fee at first..but then..later he was required to pay RM10 every month…common is that suppose to be expensive?? He got all this benefits cuz..his dad works in TELEKOM..watever..I ain’t tryin to promote notin okey..anyway…he already switched to Maxis…that’s still not the point..okey..so…akibat daripada…bergaul dengan ASG…he oso become jahat lar…so..he started sendin prank sms to YJ…impersonating a GIRL…and YJ immediately believed him..without even askin’ “WHO IS THIS”!!! Damn man…that guy thinks he is that hot or is he juz plain dumb..???So…DtG credit oni left with RM4 oni..now..and dear Mr. YJ is feelin real fly right now…haha..all sorts of nonsense all DtG sent…I think ur cute and all that…and hold on..DtG sent me a sample…”…sure.n my heart n soul r just being captured by ur hony-like words. all my kisses r 4 u.U r like an angel for me.luv u 4eva.kiss kiss.” hahahahHAHAHAHAHA…. i can not tahan lar…hahaha.i dunno who sent to who that..but either way it is cukup menjijikkan.HAHAHAH..and hold on…I think i juz got one more…”…me too wanna my hand in urs. u make me love u more but 4 me ur absolutely perfect in ur own way. lin, ur my love baby.miss u more then anything”..hahahahahhHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAA….lol..lol…this one is defenitely from YJ….hahahah..there is no SUCH person as lina..and this guy has never even seen her…but ad fall in luv…what is this now??!?! Don’t u think he got some serious problem?? haha…sa…c2 oso knows bout it now..we r all pplayin along now..and guess wat..??Yj thinks his gonna meet “Lina” this FRIDAY!!!! IN THE MOVIES ON TOP OF ALL THAT…!!!!HAHAHAHAH…I feel juz a LIL’ bad… I dunno whether he can take it or not…haha..I know I can lar…cuz I’m numb to brokeness ad haha..if u know wat I mean..but this guy is new..and this year oni..kena reject 3 times..ad..anyway..should we tell YJ the truth..and bear the risk of this unique group breakin’ up(that means so much to us)..OR juz cut the communication between “Lina” and YJ…by juz makin’ “Lina” say …”forget bout it”…(so that this group can stay firm)..I’m really confused and I would really appreciate some help…and…yea..this is notin to do with revenge or anything similiar like dat…it’s juz for pure fun..i know..but we ain’t really THAT bad..not evil at least…so please send ur opinions..tha doors are open…but b4 I end i got a joke…if ur open minded u will understand haha…

c2 got interviewed at the Singapore Checkpoint..
Ur name sir?? (officer)
Teo c2 (c2)
Sex sir??(officer)
Yeap..I like it.. (c2)
No, I mean male or female?? (officer)
Well that doesn’t matter..Both oso can…Sometimes even with HORSE…. (c2)

Hhahahayh…u gotta be sharp to understand this..c2 was in Singapore when YJ composed this …he juz knew it today..so many people got it HAHAHA(sms)…but the “Lina” thing was stated by DtG oni..during the weeken..hahaha(ppl go class tambahan he do all this nonsense)..haha…anyway people…gotta go…I’ll be back soon…juz keep heckin aight??hahahaha..okey…

Always fresh,
Chris J (ASG)

Damn man..I used so much of time to create a post and it was all wasted, an error occured…Anyways…I would like to open up the eyes of those who r actually blurred by the word “Relationships”…..U see…many of us …because of our parents dun indulge ourselves in relationships…Y are we soo narrow minded?? U see..students r not the only people that r suffering from relatioships..actuall..adults suffer from this too…In an even worse case..They keep on tellin us that is an adult thing…Actually there is nothing wrong with it..It’s juz that we should not cross the lines like having sex and all that..U get wat I mean lar..right..Having a relationship actually nurtures us to handle our emotions better…Gals r really…sensitive to emotions I understand..but until when r gals gonna get bullied by guys in relationships..No doubt it is painfull..But often the ladies talk bout speaking up…It all comes down to relationships…And people..I hav been talking bout Boy Girl Relationships all this time okay…Nothing else..Anyway..gals don’t be afraid..and guys u all oso gotta learn how to comfort ur companion..give them what they want…Stop thinking bout urself and what’s under UR pants…People…my message here is clear enough..If I feel like there’s somethin else that I should put in..I’ll give another post..or edit this juzkeep readin people…So..this is also open for any Kind of comment..I hope all of you will change UR perspective….on this subject…
Peace out.
Chris J

Oookey…so here I go again..haha..so as ya’ll can see I’m gonna talk bout realationships today..haha…between animals and people..Hey!! What were ya’ll thinkin?? Hahaha..no lar…juz jokin’ anyways…About relationships…Between teenagers…let it be lesbians haha..or gays…Yea..Okey..As we all know..many teenagers hav relationships nowadays…Boy Girl Relationship..Yeap..u got me right…So…in my opinion..I think that it is not wrong to hav one….I am not sayin is the best thing to do on earth..okey..don get me wrong aight…OOkkey..so…I think that we should learn how to control a relationship not get rid of it…In a way it matures us…It’s juz like goin campin..So that we can mature ourselves…Leadership and all…All of us will be workin soon..and we WILL hav relationships…let’s not go far…even workin people are struggling with relationships…so…we SHOULD start from young…juz dun get over the border like having pre-marriagle sex and all that..U gotta be patient…This is the four crterias..an adult told me bout handling a relationship..he has squalifications okey..1. R u ready to get hurt? 2. R u ready to get hurt? 3. R u willing to be responsible for her/him? 4. Is the other person ready to be responsible for u?…
Getting hurt includes sacrifice..I..ain’t talkin bout rejection …The others r jus as like I hav written it..Sooo…I hope u people out there will hav a different perspective on relationships…We gotta to open up ur eyes to reality…people…open up…Think about UR children..I might be writing on this topic again…People..please leave ur comments let it be bad or good I accept all…that’s y I left it open…Please the gates r open…and I really hope that all of u will be more open to this subject..
Peace out,
Chris J

Hmmm….more than a month since I’ve posted one…Sorry people… if there is anyone readin’ my blog…Din really get the time..to do so…cuz doin nonsense with this machine…and got no time…akibat dari doin nonsense…Hmm…been writin the intro for so damn long but still haven’t got a clue….Oh ya..I remember..Our Anti-Sangkut Gang’s official’s number is 24 cuz…u know ler..haha…testpapers…red marks…haha…I’m sure u get me…Other then that…I me and some hommies did ’somethin’…u can say that is counted a kind of ‘virginity’ for the guys…My friend keep on sayin..we r visitin lembah hina…Really can’t tell ya’ll ya’ll wanna know..ask me..aight…I can’t put it up here..I used to think that nobody reads these blog till I got mail..from friends all the way froom Seremban to Kedah…I am NOT braggin okay…Please understand…other then that..Hmmm…Ever fell for two people…at the same time..or ever put a list of gals just incase u don get one…u can try for da other one?? Hmm…a good experiment…Aight this is really quite boring huh?? Sorry la people…I really dunno wat to write a bout…Hmm…ya…as usual..SFI is the slowest…all the other schools, their mag is already out..But honestly it sux…Okay …okay….I’m bein a bit too much and too honest right here…It..wasn’t really good…U guys tried anyway..and I happen to be one of the fools who bought it….nevermind..I did that for a reason…I mean common let’s be human…What would u do if an innocent pretty lookin’ gurl comes up to u..and asks u to buy the magazine?? Let’s be honest here okay..This goes out to all the gals too…Haha…that’s about it for now…don worry I’ll be back soon enough..cuz holiday’s is comin ..Haiyooo…gotta start studyin ad…To all da F4’s better start studyin!!! The “selaral” exam is less then 50 days away..Haiyooo…really scarred sial…Okay la..for now…Bye guys…Please keep readin..bye..
Chris J

Weed up!! If ya’ll if u don do drugs then it’s peace up..Hahah..Wooohooo…I am sooo happy..The party was such a success..First looks like only so few people..I was startin’ to regret and feel worried..the party was supposed to be a blast..I din want to dissapoint my friends that came out of their way juz to come to my party… Two of them even skipped church and some even tution..Aiyooo!!!I guaranteed them it will be a blast …and what do u know…It was a H-U-G-E success…First I came back,then help to setup some stuff lar..with c2 and Nelson..Chez was walkin around..brought down bro’s speaker and all..Later when I told the guys I was gonna to bath, guess what c2 asked me?? He said “do u need my hp?”U know y??Because got all those kind of “things” inside lar…hahah lol!!!Juz imgine if they had real money..What do u think they will give me?? Hhaha..Hey that’s what friends are for anyway…YJ started the dancing..c2 “broke” the floor..then everybody joined in..YJ put the powder and coordinated the music and my bro, Cal was the bartender…my spot light was on…Obviously there were no parents around..That’s y lar..Sam was booty-dancin’ and yup..his pants came down with his underwear..hahaha…See girls..that’s y can not invite ya’ll…U’ll be rollin ur eyes and the boys can not enjoy themselves..There was powder on the floor..How was the worm i did with the twins?? Hah guys??Hhaha……Then ManU brought his PS2…haha..So many people said it was the best party they have been too..Especially YJ..and now the whole Anti-Sangkut was together…YJ and c2 okay ad..Thanx very much 4 da gifts guys..c2 brought YJ home..Thank u for makin’ this party such a big success..But there was a lot of cleanin’ up..After this got some more..Haiyaaa….Never mind lar..CJ is always the party fun dogg..Thank u so much people..Hahaha..4 all those sacrificing their time and effort..Holla!!!!!

Damn man..i ain’t know notin’ to write..hemmm let me see ah…KK..it goes like this ,then like that then like this then like dat..Hahaha..jz jokin’ don leave..KK..This Sat I am suppose to hav a birthday party (My very own All Balls Party)..Invited the whole Anti-Sangkut Gang.all agreed to come..but now..got one of them very susah..Always cari pasal with the other member who is supposedly to give him a lift to my place..But t then he fight with YJ(the guy that’s givin’ the lift)..Damn the guy forgave C2 three times ad in one day after I beggin’ him to come..I want four of us to be together..DtG sacrificed his KL trip with his family just so that we can be together and get thin’s rollin’ on fire in the party(Thanx dogg..I really appreciate that ..that’s the biggest birthday present you can give, I’m touched) We got breakers, music, ‘pole-dancers’ and all the shit to melt this thing sown…But this fellow, C2, simply want to cari masalah and he is suppose to be one of our main gigs of the night..The entertainer..So far I am controllin’ it..Damn what other way u can bring down a dogg’s party after the barbecue plannin and all that water shit and stuff like dat..People WANNA be invited to MY parties and this guy??Man I am gonna make sure I have the rum and all the shit and ‘weed’..I’ll make sure he will regret not comin to my party…But still I would like C2 to come…But I gotta be strong.. Enough with the sensitive , carin’ part of me.. Gonna get this part bouncin’….Holla…
Chris J

Hey..Hey..Hey…Looks like the big dogg is still safe..haha…mom couldn’t come for the report card thingey..Just started work..and dad is working too far what..ahhaha…Now I must go and get it myself..the report card lar..I got so many bad comments man from my teachers…all in the report..especialyy the teacher that teaches..let me see ah….oh ya..ALL!!!!!But wat daryl said is true..ANTI SANGKUT still rules!!!!Yeah!!! Making unnecessary noise(that was from my phisics teach…)I was helping actually what..Okay this is what happened..One dude came up to teacher and said he had an emergency..he needed to go to toilet..And teacher said she don hav the pass so he can not go to toilet..so I help him lar…I made a siren sound.. Wiu!Wiu!Wiu!…Something like that lar it goes…If u can reach a high pitch help lar…Right? ..Hahah..Some of my boys called me BOMBA..haha…Any ways that is all for now..feel free to give comments..it’s open..Weed up!!
Chris J

Hem….wat to say???I aint really good at this blog stuff ..but i will give it a try…I will update what happens in school lar i guess…So much of excitement and grief…Hemm.I might die this Thursday..Report card day…..Ya..percentage really really low…That’s y lar..lazy that’s why..I deserve it..after the evil things that i have done I guess i deserve this…till then condolences to myself…