Blue Heaven Blue Flame

Okey  so we all have heard of Multiple Personality Disorder..Yea..that means a few Different characters exists..in one body..it’s when that person..keeps everything inside..and dun let his problems go..or ..his/her desires are not fulfilled..so another charater comes into play..it kind of generates itself..to ..fulfill what the "real" character wants…but the  "real" charater doesn’t have a clue that it’s happenin to him..he thunks he juz went to sleep or…juz went unconcious…People having  this kind of problem..pose  themselves as an empty space in the spiritual realm..so..they can be posessed and thinks like dat..yea…even if u like to switch…or pretend to be something  that ur not…ur actuyally putting ur spirit on the line…yea…actors..I know…u must be very conscious..when ur pretendin to be somethin that ur not…always be alert..and conscious..most people do it sub-consciously…so..that’s y soon that certaon charater that they are tryin to be will soon influencethen take over you completely with out you knowing at all…so be care ful guys….

That was only the intro…now I wanna talk about living split  lives…I mean forming an image to coveer up what u really are deep down  inside..??Sounds familiar?? Anyways..some of us put on "shells"..because of the previous hurts that we’ve gone through..somethin that hurts soo bad..till u juz wanna let go of that bad memory..u ended up..creatin a whole new person fur urself…to cover what u are in the past..Confused?? Let me give u a lil’ situation..here..say..u were a soft person so many months ago..and then  someone "special" came along..u get what I mean right?? haha..anyways…yea…so u like this person soooo much at that time…most probably that person was  the one u fell so bad in love with (man I hate usin’ that 4 letter word, it sounds so sissy fying..)…but unfortunately u got rejected..or…say…worse still u hate to move to another place sooo far away…thousands of miles…and u  go through many many…months of pain..of leaving someone u really l**e….the pain was so bad that u din even want to look fur another person…or..even if u try…that spark of l**e juz won’t come out…even when UR tryin to make that kind of "chemical" reaction  come up..by itself…it’s like a part of u is tellin "No u still like her..she’s got the best of u…"but u dun want that feelin come up….so here is where the body, mind and  soul…starts it’s mechanism..it’s like a switch is turned on…so..yea…the "new"…character comes around…because u dun wanna go through that depression..but deep down somewhere…u hav that dirty lil’ secret…ur locked that someone "special"..soemwhere in ur mind…not lookin forward to open it..again…but ..sometimes..the thought..screams to get out..but by makin a new character..u will be able to handle it better…yea…but still somehow..the pain will still be there for sometime…But then later..it’ll be nothing more than a funny memory..I mean…Can u imagine….from that soft person u were…Usuddely changed COMPLETELY…from a person that is normally dominated…u …become the person who controls everything..and say…from..a clean cut dude…u become like this rough exterior biker boy…and from being concern bout someone…u dun want people to know that u do anything good…in fact u want them to know that u often  do something..bad…all this is juz to protect ur soft side…it’s like ur mak8ing a guardian fur urself…only ur closest people..knows what u really are..to others..ur just someone..really lean, mean..and cares bout no one else..but urself…yea..so ur new character is like a big brother to ur "real self"…..IF people start accepting all of us as we are..we dun have to come out with cuch crazy charaters..and put our lives on the line..yes..it’s that dangerous…so often this people..sometimes get misjudged..because of their new character..I mean…u look at this guy he is so neat…but his hand-writing is horrible..but juz because of his hand-writing and ur silly comments…he changed…into a rough dude…but if u go to his home…his really fussy bout cleanliness and all that…and yea…so…I wanna add somemore…this dude..from who dun mix with all this bad people…he starts SMOKING!!!! i mean..can u imagine…okey..picture this in ur mind…picture someone…u know…whose really soft…and starts SMOKING!!!!!! hard to believe right..from a coward to a DAREDEVIL!!…so stop misjudging people…give them a chance and…get to know them…deep down this kind of people…is someone..really soft..and really nice….it’s juz we dun care about this people…if u see a girl..that is dressed up..like a boy…get to know her….she could be the most lady-like person u’ve ever known..often the new charaters are the total opposite/contrast..of what they really are…so please..please…u should really..really get to know someone…before..judging them…
man that was long haha…aight..anyway..i got somethin here fur ya’ll…   

I should have put it up..bout…2 weeks ago..yea..me and..my gang…bald…except fur that YJ…his such a coward..hmmph..dissappointed…hmmph…the pic ain’t really that big huh..I’ll put it up..the..album or somethin lar….Holla!!!!

Chris J

Okey..yea…I’m back…sorry cuz I din let ya’ll know bout my friend…YJ…he got burned allright…HAHAHAHA….he found out bout it..on the day…I wrote bout wat was happenin..(which was the date of my previous entry)..anyway…he was playin one of his friends hp…and that “fren”..was notified bout that prank..and he was also told NOT to disclose DtG’s handphone…and guess wat?!?!?!..YJ saw all those messages…and of course..he got juz a lil’ dissappointed…I’m so proud of him that he din make a big “hu-ha”..bout that matter..anyways..now..he hav his imaginiry girl friend..and we ALL laugh bout it together…HAHAHAH..okey..somemore..wat else to talk about…hmm…oh yea!!! Okey…today..we had to do an experiment in the ‘kimia lab’…it was something bout..testing to see if it’s asid..you know..the one..that..will turn purple when u put in da penunjuk universal??does it ring a bell?? okey nvm…anyway…c2 was pouring some water into the buret..so his hand was above head-level..and i was blowin some sort of funny apparutus…at c2..right on his face haha..(it had water in it)..HAHAHAH…i was blowing all the water on his face for about 5 seconds..he act “sabar” at first..the suddenly he threw the whole jug of water on ME!!!!damn man..I was wet and cold…especially today when it was raining..then suddenly my shirt started turnin’ blue..(that I dunno why lar)…earlier oso somethin similiar like dat happened…but I was oni blowing thin streams of water on him…but he POURED everything on ME!!!..Hauyoo…terrible man…hahahHAHAHAHA…but it was funny all right…anyways..I dunno ithis was worth ur time readin…Sorry if it isn’t…I’ll be back soon…Yea yea…u know..wat I’m bout to say “keep readin’”..promise I’ll be back with something spicier next time…Holla!!!!

Chris J